While we were recording the hymns album throughout March and April, there was a little bit of tension in my heart; I really wanted to just lead worship, but I couldn’t turn off the part of my brain that was telling me it was all being captured and I needed to sound really good.
Due to some chronic sinus issues I’ve developed over the past couple years, I became extremely self conscious of how my voice was sounding during recording. Yet God kept reminding me that even if I didn’t sound perfect, He could still use what we were doing. In 2 Corinthians 12:9 (which became my heart’s cry in this season), Jesus responds to Paul’s request for a “thorn” in his flesh to be removed: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Paul continues, saying, “Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
It became my prayer in this season that Jesus would actually breathe His Spirit, His sufficient grace, onto this recording through my weakness – that Christ’s power would rest on me in my weakness. I truly believe Jesus allowed this struggle to occur, in part so that I would not become conceited and rely on my talent throughout this project. Rather, these health issues forced me to come back to Jesus and say, “I am weak. Without you I have nothing. May your power rest on me in this weakness and may You be glorified through it.”
The second thing I was learning about during the recording phase was that spiritual warfare is real. While Ephesians 6:12 makes it clear that there is a spiritual battle taking place, sometimes I still only attribute difficulties to simply living in a fallen world. However, during the six weeks we were recording, it became clear to me that many of our worship leaders and musicians were facing spiritual attack. Why would the enemy want a CD filled with hymns of Biblical truth to be released into this world?
We began meditating on 1 Peter 5:8-11. It acknowledges that: “the enemy is on the prowl,” that we should “resist him, standing firm in the faith,” and that “the God of all grace…will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast” (emphasis added).
What a beautiful promise for our team during this time! God Himself will restore us and make us strong, firm, and steadfast.
We continued to persevere through the process, standing firm in Him rather than our own strength, and He has restored us.
In what ways is God calling you to let your weakness be where His power rests?
In what ways do you need to acknowledge that the enemy is on the prowl and Jesus is calling you to stand firm and resist him?